I guess I'll log out and go check my email or something.

Of course, it's also possible the exceptionally large check from my grandparents was actually my inheritance from my great-grandmother, who died this past summer.

That's a fact I still feel numb about. In fact, I keep blocking it out and forgetting it until someone reminds me, and then I scramble desperately to muffle the thought again. Part of me thinks that if I actually tried grappling with it, it'll ruin me, just like I've so far been unable to properly face my maternal grandfather's death.

I think sometimes I'm so "new media" oriented because I don't want to think too hard about human life and its predictability. I don't want to deal with the immensity of the human record thus far. It's a cowardly position to take, but it's been a mentally debilitating quarter. Ask me next year.

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The year is, fortunately, nearly over for me. I completed my last final today-- a history class, appropriately enough; I haven't dealt with US history since I was 16. I didn't forget very much, apparently.

This past Tuesday I also delivered a DVD to my faculty advisor, containing captured footage from .hack to better illustrate the thrust of my paper and what I've been working on this quarter. I'd've like to shown more, but it was a very last-second thing, and I didn't really want to waste his time. Though one of these days I'm going to have to start behaving very selfishly if I want him to take the slightest active interest in the project.

But that, too, is nothing new.

I treated a friend to a graduation dinner last night, and tomorrow I'm taking Josh, my alter-ego, to Write Aid, the WGA comedy benefit being hosted at my school. A nice thing to go out on, apart from the mini-movie we're shooting together with the third member of our Three Amigos, Kevin. But that's Monday. Friday through Sunday is a movie set, and a fairly exciting one, at that. Dan knows how to get a good energy flowing, even for an exhausted, long-suffering crew. Stills and video coming soon.